Alone
Being lonely is not my hobby. Stay alone in a bedroom for a long time just make me stress. I am sorrounded by nobody, it seems frightening. I love living in a crowded place, although I just keep silent and say nothing but I am happy btw. Actually, this is the situaition that I have to face it now... and I hate it.
Today started well. I woke up at five, I prayed well insyaAllah... on time. I didn't sleep again. I continued cleaning my room, washing the clothes, taking a bath, and having breakfast. After my friend going home, I went to university library.
There was a problem. I got difficulty when turned on my motorcycle. I thought I have broken it after bringing it from home. Alhamdulillah, after praying and saying shalawat it turned on successfully. Today was so hot. The sun shone brightly. I wear gloves and it made me difficult to ride. Because the gloves were slippery, so I had to held the stang strongly.
I borrowed a book of Emha Ainun Najib with tittle "Surat Untuk Kanjeng Nabi". I downloaded two episodes of "Tetangga Masa Gitu". After my partner has come, we did our task of Dinamika Populasi. Then, my friends and I did SMILE for an hour. After that I continued doing the task and went home at 3.30.
I have problem with my left spion. My father had phoned me and asked what to do with it. But, I was too hungry to think it. I found a friend to eat, but I didn't get. They were all busy. Okay, then I bought by my self. I ate with my self in my room.
Tonight, I asked my friend to go. But she had had an appointment for having dinner with her friend. Okaay... so I stayed in my room tonight. I was bored so I did skipping until got tired.
Really... I felt that my friend left me. She has another appointment, didn't ask "Do you want to go with us?" Then she came to my boarding home, to my friend's room... She didn't send me a message, didn't knock my door, even say hello. Guys, what's wrong with you guys? What's wrong with me? Why did you do that? Do you know that what had you done to me was cruel?
Somebody said, "People come and go". Ya, that's true. But, I really don't wanna miss you guys.. but, I don't know what should I do :")
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